His Resolve that He Made and Expressed Recently

Recently he was not accepting the idea that his parents were fixed to – the conventions of world that he didn’t subscribe to. Since college itself he didn’t believe in colleges, classes, lecturers, even expressed [being outspoken] to his seniors. He believed more in books, libraries and labs [maybe not the labs he had in his college]. He was assertive to his conformist parents who insisted on competitive exams as integral part of social conventions. He replied if the conventions be followed by the populist opinions, directions and actions then if the crowd lead us to pit, well, sewer, etc then should we follow them to fall into them? Still they were unrelenting and him too unaccepting. He also argued that what makes sense for a PhD or Grad Degree holder to be examined? They have already overcome so many academic exams. May be a jackass or at the most learned tyrant would be examiner for them which is absurd. He considers present day exams a bullshit. The system either measures capacity to rote, or the ability to labor or speed of mind at the most but destroys creativity, fails to give clear, practical perspective of education, shuns morale and motivation of learning, knowledge and experience. All it does is to narrow the life down to curriculum. It neither does what is supposed to nor lets others do.

Even when had just completed his post graduation degree in Grad School, he said life is not confined to the boundaries of school. Life is something that is totally different. Success or fail in school didn’t determine that in life. In fact he has college/ Grad School failure mates doing well in life – decently employed and well settled with family, though he didn’t fail at any level despite all odds against him that he has already explained in earlier posts.

He is Scorpio/ with Scorpio decanate and cusp – lord and sub-lord being same – Pluto/ Mars according to Western Astrology and with Leo in rising. He wants to make a point from his horoscope in relevance to the topic at hand or the flow that. When thwarted, you don’t just accept defeat. You’re extremely agile when it comes to sidestepping obstacles and figuring out a dozen new ways to get to your goal. …. The Scorpion energy, drive, and endurance are legend. …Many Scorpio natives are brilliant doctors, surgeons, scientists, and spiritual leaders. Jonas Salk, Christiaan Barnard, Marie Curie, and Martin Luther are among them. The complexity of your mind makes it difficult for you to skim the surface; you must uncover what lies beneath. Whether you are studying a new subject, learning a language, hunting down a fact, or just reading for amusement, there is a quality of penetration in the way your mind works.[Marie Curie and Martin Luther being his favorites]…you’re not going to let yourself fail along the way. When you latch on to a new opportunity, you explore it in great depth before going aheadyou will always be one of life’s great winners. At times, however, you feel you are a lone warrior in a harsh world. …FIRST DECANATE – You have fixed opinions, but also a scientific turn of mind that will examine ideas and arrive at a new opinion should the facts warrant it … CUSP OF SCORPIO – You have a strong will, but unless you are crossed or thwarted you don’t often show it.   Leo Ascendant- The Sun, which rules Leo, is very prominent in your horoscope. The influence of the Sun bestows enthusiasm, generosity, power, warmth, creative self-expression, passion, and courage. It also encourages egotism, arrogance, snobbism, conceit, pomposity, and condescension.Leo-Rising people seem surrounded by luck in money, career, and friendship. You are not an especially hard worker but tend to achieve success through the influence and pull of others. Fame and fortune come to you when you aren’t looking for it.~~ ALL ABOUT ASTROLOGY – The Only Astrology Book You’ll Ever Need by Joanna Martine Woolfolk.

His response to his career question by his parents and psychiatrist lately was – except career of monarch and entrepreneur everything is nothing, waste. He argued by taking example of Peter I ‘the Great'[he calls him just Tsar Peter] that during his one and half years of European tour, neither nation’s administration was affect nor he himself had worry about money and food. Similar is the case of established entrepreneur. His mother argued that present actors like Akshay Kumar who ranks 9th highest paid actor according to Forbes List that they are rich, what will they do of money? Cant they axe-away portion of assets to the needy. He replied they aren’t rich. They are just are professionals, have to work to earn money. If they don’t work then they don’t have money. The rich ones are the magnates.

In case of monarch case is totally different. Monarch doesn’t depend on his subjects but instead subjects depends on monarch. Moreover, monarch doesn’t work for a salary unlike a Prime Minister. Enlightened (absolute) monarch has according to Enlightenment principles works like a charity to govern subjects to their best interests as father/ godmother of subject, subjects being his/ her children and knows their interest and welfare better themselves. The monarch could also have enlightened philosophers and scientists as his advisers. But, the decision is that of the monarch. Famous Enlightened monarchs in Europe were Catherine II the Great of Russia, Joseph II of Austria, Fredrick II the Great of Prussia. They may have adhered to ideals to varied degrees. According to him Peter I of Russia was more than Enlightened Despot. If he weren’t barbaric he would have qualified to be Enlightened monarch. But, he did more than administration. He lead a social, cultural, scientific revolution. He left no aspect of state untouched. He set up several academies, secular schools and courts. Certainly for certain aspects Iron Hand is needed f.e. to curb corruption, to create order in the state. In Asia/ India monarch placed more value on dharma (righteousness.) They can be said to be ahead of west but in crude form that the Western philosophers and monarchs refined it and gave a scientific and rational perspective. Perfect example of dharmic monarch of India who applied dharmic principles in administration was Asoka ‘the Great’. He also used dharma as political tool. “Conquer through dharma is superior to that through war.” After adopting dharma Asoka gave up waging wars. Asoka is internationally famous both in East (due to Buddhism)and West(due to familial relation with the Greeks).  India also has other monarchs who are still national heroes – Shivaji of Maratha Empire, Ranjeet Singh of Sikh Empire, who ended 500 year Moslem rule in Kashmir, was a secular ruler never awarded capital punishment, Chandragupta of Mauryan Empire (grandfather of Asoka), who established united India, married a Greek princess Helena, opening gate to Hellenist World, reign of Samudragupta and Chandragupta II of Gupta dynasty, termed as Golden Age of India. Chinese traveler Faxian arrived during the reign of Chandragupta II and gave a general description of North India at that time. Among the other things, he reported about the absence of capital punishment, the lack of a poll-tax and land tax. Most citizens did not consume onions, garlic, meat, and wine. Despite all these meritorious, magnanimous monarchs why Indians in particular and foreigners dislike monarchy, that he doesn’t understand. May be due to few scoundrels like Aurangzeb, idiots like Tughluq. He loathed democracy (of India) since his college times due to their ineptness and failure due to instability.


His Future Directions and Actions

On having official diagnosis of ADHD he is into Ritalin SR. But, he hasn’t yet achieved total remission. He wishes to settle with Concerta in future that he considers better drug approved for Adult ADHD. This will help better with healing of his brain.

Further, despite having strong interest in sciences, he wont be taking conventional route to achieve it, but as at present his priority is money, thus he will propel through business route to catch his scientific career. He doesn’t believe in working in a lab but aims for owning a lab. By commercialization, he can combine money and knowledge to fulfill his interest in sciences. Despite this he can continue studying advanced math and sciences. He will be publishing Problems thought or proved by or topics that interest Phoenix Russ. Beside this he has project to prepare math, chem and neuroscience lectures in WYSIWYG LaTeX.

Of all sciences, as he is utilitarian, he would work in the field that will be directly of his use, fulfilling his personal needs, instead of some field that caters need of some other population – the fields encompassing connections between spirit, brain and  machine. He is often intrigued by similarity in meaning of occult (spirit science) that is called tantric and neuroscience that is called tantrika  in Hindi. Definitely, he expects some connection. He also came across a psychiatric paper where genuinely possessed British person(of Indian origin) was relieved by psychiatric drugs when priest from all religions failed in removing it. Similarly, he came across a WP page where a witch saved a terminal patient on whom doctors had given up all hopes of revival. So, he wants to study dynamics of such spirit-brain connections. Also, he wants to connect brain and computer to convert barrage of audio and visual data from digital representation to neural representation, so that volumes can be transferred to brain thereby relieving off time and effort needed for manually performing those tasks. He will also be starting WP page on spirit science and occult. He already has YouTube channel on General Topics on Spiritual Knowledge that is undergoing extensive renovations.

Earlier when he was suffering from cognitive dysfunction, he wanted to scientifically solve the problem, as he thought cognitive dysfunctions were part of bipolar illness instead of ADHD, the possibility of which had been turned down by many psychiatrists. So, as those cognitive symptoms were part of Bipolar disorder, that were often residual even after its treatment, he thought cognitive issues as distinct aspect of illness whose etiology and specific drugs have to be explored. To this end he wanted to work in lead labs of world to acquire those experimental chemicals and  investigate its potential promise and danger of drugs drawing knowledge from neurobiology, neuropsychopharmacology, psychiatric genetics, pharmacogenomics, etc in treating those residual symptoms. But, instead he wished to have access to National Medical Library through his friend, a research officer there and go through all advanced neuroscience books and solve the problem. But, things went as wished. Now, he has more collection of books, papers in neuroscience, psychiatry, neurology, psychology concerning his conditions than any other library. Consequently, he scientifically diagnosed his residual cognitive symptoms as ADD. Thereafter, he presented 3 scientific summaries to his psychiatrist, theoretically compelling him to accept. Thus he cut short time and effort needed to exploring it in labs. He will be publishing those summaries in another blog for psychobiology.